When it comes to the hidden psychological components of spirit stuff, sometimes ya gotta listen to yourself, especially when asking why. The state of questioning is different than asking a question. The state of questioning is the openness we become when we ask something deep with no answer in mind, no intention to project, whatsoever. Only when we ask as innocence can clarity become us. (See the difference between asking as and I am asking? The former leads to becoming clarity, not having clarity.)
Asking is a tool of the state of questioning, not the state itself. This is an important distinction because so many of us get lost in questions—often the same questions over and over—which we assume are coming from a place of genuine inquiry.
Are they? Or are some questions verbalized so that you may remain you in the conversation, never transcending it? Never transcending you? Growing frustrated and moving on to the next topic?
We need to stay in a state of questioning. But sometimes we pass over the answer that really is the answer so that we won’t move on. We pretend to ourselves we didn’t see it. Our eyes have a way of skipping over that which we don’t want to read. Sometimes we ask Why? like a broken record to stay in place. Skipping is good exercise. It builds and strengthens us in the face of collapse, unfortunately.
If the “us” we’re talking about is confusion, does confusion want clarity? Or is clarity seen as an affront to confusion? Confusion knows what the logically correct answer is, but never quite seems to get there personally. Funny how that works.
Often, when we’re handed an explanation of what is, we ask why to the next logical question in the series as a means to not contemplate what’s in front of us. We brush past what’s being related because we don’t want to relate. To deal with what is is to function in the present, but we’re forward-thinking people, always looking to what’s next. We draw from the past to move into the future. The present is a whole other stage of being.
We call what’s in front of us “boring” or “remedial” or “settled.” If we comprehend it logically, that’s good enough. For some of us, just hearing or reading what is is enough. No need to even comprehend it when impatiently saying, “Yeah, yeah, I get it. What’s the answer to the next question?” will do.
This is what we do. It’s what we do—watch it in you. Don’t condemn it or claim, “Not me.” If not you, you’re very lucky. But just watch it or watch for it as it’s happening. It could be happening right now.
What happens when we catch ourselves in the act of preserving the I by running past the present into the future? What happens when we listen to ourselves with such care and devotion that the running stops?
Asking what happens next is an irrelevant question. You are the answer. Unless you’re not. The continued asking is the continuance of you.
Isn’t continuity, not the transformative answer to the great whys of the world, what you really want?