I recently spoke to a group of professors and PhD. candidates in fields ranging from psychology to anthropology, at the Esalen Institute in Big Sur, California. I told them about my “awakening” experience, which you may have read in my book, Urgency., or heard in the audio version on this site. During the retell, I described how being Spirit moving through the universe of one’s own creation is like a living, smiling wind breezing through the toy box of its own mind—words to that effect. We held a question and answer session after the presentation. Another presenter asked me what it felt like and I said, “Complete joy.”
Almost exasperatedly, he said, “Really? It didn’t feel better than that? I would think it would feel stronger than joy. There has got to be a better word.”
There is no need for a stronger word. When you are pure, complete, absolute joy, you are impersonal Love. There is no opposite of this type of joy, but if there were it would be complication, not pain.
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There are those who want to make an orgasm of oneness, or of the portion of the now moment that is physicality exploding into existence. But how can it be orgasmic when there is nothing to compare with it? Bursts of power and feeling come from division. Within physicality, within division, there is orgasm. The point of view of Wholeness has no interval between itself and another. Wholeness contains all “others,” and so innocent joy is its complete state.
Although the action of Oneness is creating appearances and feelings of division, Oneness’s identity is undivided. If you were to tattoo a picture of people fighting on your arm, you wouldn’t say there were people living on your arm who are fighting. The picture is telling that story, but the inherent action of story doesn’t equate to a real-world aliveness of people living on your arm. The tattoo, with its story, is an appearance of separate selves and action.The consciousness, you, upon which the tattoo rests and the story unfolds, wholly understands this.
True joy is the radiating action of Love and it’s that simple.
When you are oneness, you are simple.
Joy is enough.