It is from experiencing that I repeat over and over how the authentic, full spiritual unfolding occurs. It is from experience that you listen over and over. Have you asked yourself why you’re here seeking Truth? You haven’t found it anywhere else, why would it be here?
All things exist in space-time. One of those things is the human brain. The human brain is alighted with sentience. This sentience models itself on that which it is born into: space-time. So, the brain sets up a psychological facsimile of space-time and fills it with motivations and measurements, thoughts and thought constructs—formless things used to emulate the very reality it finds itself in. This psychological facsimile is you. It’s not something you’re moving through or using to your advantage, it is you.
Spiritual seeking is a means to never understand Truth, which is untouched by thought, untouchable by seekers who are thought. Truth transcends and includes thought; Truth is the now, is Being, and thought is time, is space. Truth is right here, camouflaged by thought and doing, because the now is the ending of psychological space-time—the end of the seeker—you.
Seeking Truth to avoid what we’re seeking is unconscious. Claiming that we’ve found Truth is the conscious way we avoid Truth. The self is a fabrication of the brain and so the self who says, “I’m beyond myself—I’m my higher self, I’m powerful, I’m different,” is the brain fabricating a self-conscious lie to defend against an abundance of spiritual information that rings true if it is of Truth, yet, frustratingly, cannot be gotten to through those promising words. And when the brain accumulates spiritual knowledge it naturally develops (or already had in mind) a desire for status.
No one wants to be the student. Everyone wants to be the master. Want implies seeking, which we don’t want. And so we claim. We own. This is what Western mind does: we take ownership, we dominate. Why should that man or woman get to be the guru, the shaman, the healer? Why not me? I know enough to teach a weekend course in what takes other cultures lifetimes of apprenticeship embedded with and as nature to master.
These lives we lead are an insult.
The difference between the spiritual audience of yesteryear and today’s is the difference between one who is searching and one who claims to know. Both are surface appearances. They’re lies. But the latter is either a conscious lie, and so one is more prone to be defensive, or an unconscious one that simply replaces the word confusion with the word clarity and goes through life pretending to be clear. People of either bent are much harder to speak with because they are actively blocking out Truth with the revelation that they’ve got it or are it. They have more layers of self-assuredness to work through than the one who is merely seeking.
One wonders what takes place when we are curious, full of wonder, but not seeking. Can we be that in the face of spiritual knowledge? Can we read a pile of dead words that contain a hint of the alive, feel it, and sit with that feeling?
Can we abandon translating curiosity into an urge to do?