Brain-self death is simply about reorganizing the psyche so that the human being is properly aligned and running smoothly on universal energy. Brain-self must die only to resurrect in heart. When this happens, the person is in the healthy state, ready for the next transcendence where the body remains as a time form that is powered by timeless, formless Spirit. Brain-self either denies such a thing exists or else fears it and blocks it out, believing itself to be a formless awareness wearing a skin suit. It’s not. It’s the awareness of brain blown out of proportion, which is a blockage.
Heart-self is less fearful than brain. Heart-self understands what’s happening and is accepting of the natural flow of things, but in that flow come certain psychic awakenings and abilities that may entice the heart-alive person back to a hardened blockage through desire. It’s easier to block out the flow and say, for instance, “Now I’m a clairvoyant!” or “Now I’m a guru!” because even heart-self wants to make its own sense of the world and identity within it.
If heart-self comes into being through a dissolving of brain-self, as opposed to, for example, being born into a heart culture, those old brain-self patterns will have been etched like rote memories. Like an addict, it is possible, and perhaps simple, to revert back to what you were, except you cannot unknow what you know and so that reversion is more like a mutation. More like becoming the living dead.
“You can’t ever go home again,” as the saying goes. You can’t really go back to being a pure brain-self, for that was an unconscious denial of Truth. You can, however, live in conscious denial by holding back the tide of Truth. Why would you choose to do this? Because the mistake of brain-self gets played out again, if one is not careful, in the emergent heart-self who now believes it has arrived at the fullness of being and wants to be that.
The devil of thought, the false I AM, still resides in us so long as we exist in time. Before, you said, “I think therefore I am.”; now you declare, “I feel therefore I am.” Mind at large—duality itself—wants to exist as it is, in control, not be properly enfolded within the nondual. (Of course it already is, but just try telling duality that!) It exists through your self promotion.
Keep with the flow. See the flume ride through to the end. Laugh while rushing down that last rollercoaster cliff. Trying to get off as it’s moving only causes pain. Release is a splash and a laugh at the end. The interval of time between right now and that end is created by your resistance to it. Part of that resistance is will, the false I AM, but other parts include health of the body, health of the psychic and the subtle—the things that this energy is working on when you yield to it like a patient to a doctor.